our groanings

“But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us.” (2 Cor 4:7)
“For while we are in this tent, we groan and are burdened, because we do not wish to be unclothed but to be clothed with our heavenly dwelling, . . .”(2 Cor 5:4)
Today while I was resting after a hard and long day I thought on the attitudes of my heart. Often I am disappointed, or frustrated, and then repent of these attitudes. But they come upon me often enough that they are like near-by companions, and I wondered what the sin might be that these are founded on. I would have guessed impatience. But while I was musing the Lord interrupted my thoughts and I’d like to share what He spoke to my heart.
Forerunners are impatient, because they know things ahead of time. Issachars (1 Chron 12:32) are lonely because they know the times and what people should do, and they need people to share this with. Men of vision become too big for the space they occupy because they can see beyond it. Warriors are too hasty for grace, and children too naive for wisdom. The wise man is too careful for love . . . and on it goes. Each man’s gift causes his excellence to become a source of dissatisfaction with the ordinary, and a longing for more of the Source of his excellence.
You will never be able to tame the dissatisfaction and the frustration of waiting if you are a forerunner, any more than the Issachar can remain in solitude when he has so much to share. It is the song I put in My servants’ hearts, and it’s called groaning. Try as you may to scrub yourself up and live in peace and contentment upon this earth, you would be false to yourself if you did not become discontent at times. For the kingdoms of this earth are passing away, and Mine are being established. You are caught between the seen and the unseen, and are without the reward of stepping into that which I am teaching you is really real.
You want to use your gifts and be part of making it materialize on this earth. What is so fascinating to you is often out of your sight in the daily activities of your day. Yet your life is the earthen vessel you live in, the jars of clay which surround My glory in each one of you. Groan. Be honest before Me. I can take it. I will never change, and do not ask you to stop being disappointed in waiting, and frustrated in silence. If even the righteous dead martyrs say “How long, Oh Lord?” should you not also? Be honest before Me and don’t pretend to be little Buddah’s with peaceful ignorant smiles on your faces at all times. Yes, smile. Yes, have My peace. But do not repent of wanting more of Me in you, of wanting My kingdom upon this earth, of wanting My City to be established here, and of wanting so much more. Doesn’t the man who tastes of something good want more? I have given each of you a taste, and I will not charge you with sin for wanting more.
I am bringing together prophets, intercessors, apostles, judges, and more, so that they can share together. These will be the groaners, those who will not be satisfied chatting. They have a big plate and I have filled it for them. They are ready to serve. Oh what a feast I am preparing for those who will come. Amen.